Bulimia help

Okay so I was on myproana and on the bulimic section and there are pictures of very fatty food to purge. Im an IP and a "normal" dinner would make me want to purge it up. I feel that Im limiting nearly every thing and is leading me to starvation (coffee,soup,malteasers,sandwichs ) I need help fast before I collapse and die from it. Every time I vomit I stop eating which means I vomited up my dinner so I have no dinner left in my stomach. Not sure what to do But when I loose a bit more weight im going to admit myself to hospital for some help

Halloween?

Okay so im gradually cutting down on foods of the food pyramid .. Breakfast will probably be the same till I get to 90lbs.Which is American Pancakes with/Blueberries Lunch & dinner will now change to a salad and low carbohydrates foods.Snacks will stay the same, (coffee black.) I was looking on a few ana websites and they said that cutting down is much better than stopping altogether. The BBQ I had today for dinner acutally made me not want the roast lamb chops Salad is a safe food with olives And maybe Ill allow myself to a microwavable potato I think Im down to a size 12-16 now going online shopping and getting nice clothes for the summer. I can not wait till Halloween because I can fit into a costume which will be some kind of animal with wings or a masquerade ball dress. https://www.myproana.com/index.php/blog/81451-coffeegirl17s-blog/

218lbs

7/5/2020---- Okay so I went to see the nurse today to get an injection for my illness. I had granola yogurt,koka noodles,2american pancakes w/jam+blueberries 1coke-a-cola so far today, Im going to have my usual dinner, which is olive s>/feta cheese/colesole/1baked potatoe+ baby leaf Iv only lost 2lbs but Im not going to binge. I think tomorrow is Take-a-way so if we are having take-a-way Ill be vomiting it up. Looking forward to Halloween .Ill probably be a size 6-8 by then.I want to dress up as a fairy with wings and long leg warmers. Feeling tired at the moment which is good coz its stopping me from eating something. 11/5/2020- Well today Im going to have a nice time out for a drive and probably get some lunch out so I'm looking forward to that I have to wait till 1pm till staff come in.I signed a sheet about the care of me sheet and I went online shopping for clothes size 16-18 Iv lost a lot of weight and hopefully they will fit me :)

Real Girl Thinspo w/ Paramore music :) 218lbs 7/5/20

Heighest weight = 238lbs Current weight = 218lbs Goal weight = 200lbs Ultimate goal weight = 96-112lbs