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EAT TO LIVE DIET

So Its 22days till 31st of October and Im going on a spa breakaway,Iv got 3lbs down from 1st of October .(9days) I am currently 217.5lbs. My Goal weight is 112lbs and my Ultimate Goal weight is 90lbs.(I told the staff that when I do get under 100lbs Ill admit myself into hospital if I do not eat) Feeling in a very good mood at the moment Im surviving on DIet Drinks, Salad,Olvies,Yogurt,Noodles,Bread rolls. ANd of course my coffee.    I still need to loose about 50lbs to get me to my ideal goal weight. Staff said that Iv lost weight on my face -which is good because  I need to loose it all off by 31st. Iv notice my legs are nearly a thigh gap. For the next  22days Im in the house for Covid-19 only 10KM . Ill probably spend the next few weeks trying to stick to a regime and cut down on chocolate and crisps(I acutally can not remember when the last time I had a packet of crisps??"!) I know that the weight and my diet wont last long and Ill start to see improvements  soon. 

Sooo I found out that the Kinard Heritage Spa breakaway is open after Halloween 22nd OCT. So I have about 22days yet .Ill be on a diet and have  sunday dinner every week  

NEW DIET PLAN FOR 2months

 Okay so im going to start my under 1,000calorie diet tomorrow.

Black coffee(10calories) Per cup

MONDAY-FRIDAY, FAST ON SATURDAY AND SUNDAY

Smoothie 

2bannana 112+112calories

1 hand full of Blueberries 57calories per cup

2Apples 57+57 calories 

1 cup of Light Milk 106calories per 250ml. 444calories in total

1Potatoe 131calories

Salad 25calories

Colesole 83calories per cup

239caloriesi n total

683calories per day

Breakfast= 2coffee

Lunch= Soup + 1 coffee

Dinner = Soup + water(diluted ) 

Supper = Hot chocolate 40calories

(Treats, Diet coke)

SO I wanna go to the cinema with my mom (who is a size 00) and have some popcorn with her so I don't feel un safe. Going to do some food shopping and pick up some hot coco that is 40calories and will fill me up before bedtime :D

PICTUReS FOR FORUM

219lbs from 245lbs

 Okay so I have to eat @ the night time to keep me full and I was wondering to swap a big cheese & ham sandwich to just a cup of tea? I hate eating in the night time.   I'm taking Pro Zak and I hate it I really don't know the benfit of taking a liquid pro Zak. 

sOME thinspo ^^^^

I need to loose 9stone (93lbs) 

Day 1 Of my Liquid Diet

Okay so Far I feel in a great mood by not "eating" and Like the idea of a quick Liquid diet to shed 50lbs. Im Doing this diet for only 7Days and than see how much I'll loose. If I loose over 7lbs Ill keep it for another 7Days.The Picture is from (My Pro Ana forum) and helps me stay on track of my diet.-And no this is not my legs- I wish ,Its my Goal weight. I'll keep you updated everyday for the next 7Days. GOod luck to everyone on a liquid diet . Eating a meal only before bedtime.(so i dont faint and collapse)

DAY 2 Of my  Liquid Diet

Woke up and hand a (Handful of blueberries,2bananas,and 250ml of light milk) Than I fell back asleep and had 1 large bowl of country vegetable soup   For my dinner. I will probably have a wrap with 2slices of ham,sprinkle of cheese and 40g of butter   before bedtime so I don't collapse. Or get too hungry @ night time. . I am drinking alot of fluids at the moment so that should do it till 8pm.

DAY 3 Diet^

Went to "Chopped" to get an "Oats So Good" Smoothie for lunch today and it really was nice,Got some more fruit for my morning smoothies for the next few days. Blueberries,Pears,Bananas  

Feeling a bit tired had diarrhea for the last 2 days. On day 2 I had a really bad head ache. 

DAY 4 Of my diet 10th/9/2020

SO today I went to get another Smoothie in Junction 14,I feel kinda craving a salad and I must wait till the weekend ..ugh I wish this diet will be over. I peed alot yesterday and today Im feeling/craving any kind of chocolate or something greasy like supermacs chips.I found a diet buddy and will keep PM my new friend.I kinda like the shower these days.Halloween is near and I cant wait till than to buy a masquerade dress with a skelton zip up top.I hate when staff are being controlling ("you have to wait half an hour till your next cigrettee)" why oh why not just give me a ***.  

DAY 5 OF MY DIET 11-9-2020

So I ended my diet and I feel really full after my chopped salad and smoothie. Not sure if I can continue with the liquid diet or not. Might go back onto my liquid diet to loose more weight and stop me from binge eating. I love the way I can just wake up and make myself a smoothie instead of hurting my stomach with toast.   Im going on MPA and see if fasting once a week will help me loose some weight. Ill keep you updated soon. I hate eating somthing that I know  will make me gain some weight or even worse-not knowing if it WILL make me gain some weight :(  I think for my next diet plan I will count calories. 524568 diet.  Or just have a 500calorie diet. for 4-5days again :P I feel safe when I only drink my calorie count.

221.8Lbs

15:26pm

 So   I have a busy week ahead,

Tomorrow I am going to get a salad from "chopped",Thursday Is Rachel Ivines birthday,Friday is my injection and Saturday Im meeting up with my boy friend in Mcdonals.Feeling in a good mood Im off to thr Doctor soon in about 5mins to get an ECT. Currently I am 16stone and need to loose about 50lbs to get me under 100lbs. Iv decided to give up Sweets & Crisps and have a 0calorie Coke-a-cola instead. The caffeine will help stop hunger and burn fat. #

MY DIET

High fibre foods

A Low calorie, Liquid diet

My goal weight is - 90lbs

Current weight= 220lbs

Need to loose 50lbs by Halloween

  

4MONTHS TILL CHIRSTMAS

Okay so Its nearly Halloween and I am going to dress up as Miss Muppet.4 Months till christmas and I am going to check my credit balance tomorrow to see if I have enough to buy GW Factions for 20EUROs.Also going for a swim tomorrow night and have a nice time in the sauna.I want to get a nail varnish off EBAY for my birthday in November.Fairgreen should be open soon so i can Learn a few courses that are available.Need to finish off my book I recently bought in EASONS."If you were here" I so need to get my hair done soon - maybe sometime next week get it all chopped up and buy a dye for 10Euros.I had a manic episode the other day and I couldnt stop the voices so I stayed in my room till I could manage it and went off to bed early.The staff have stopped ringing the doctor and I feel if I go back vomiting again -I'll never stop.This time Im more into being healthy and happy than almost spetic and dying in my bedroom with the sickness.Meeting up with mom and going for a faical and lunch afterwards.

wooo

Okay So I am going to download Dogz 5 for my laptop . Looking forward to playing it I know its an very old game.

WHAT TO DOOO??♥

Okay so I bought another Laptop(just for gaming) for The Sims 4 and Guild Wars 1. I just joined Guild Wars Legacy and I skipped throughout the forum and I think its more of a boy-ish forum,like I seriously seen everything was internet language PVP,Runs ect... to be thats random bla bla bla. Feeling in a good mood at the moment after I got the Injection Iv been feeling tired,Like my butt is all numb from it. I think its called Rispdol . I went to the shop today and Im going to bake some rocky road for everyone in the house yummmmmmmmy!!! I havent vomited in a month I think. Got some MCdonals yesterday and it was really nice to have that after my injection. IV been reading a book and its keeping me happy till I get GW 1 downloaded from Steam.I have to ask my key worker if I can buy it its only 20EUROS . When I go shopping again I wanna buy some track suit bottoms (puma if I can find my size) and get my own t-shirt made which is 20EUROS for a print on-t. AFther the dod v-19 is over I wanna go back to fair green and do a few courses to keep me busy and go off to the cinema as a treat. Oh ya I forgot to mention that Id like my nails to be done soon(if the staff will make me an appointment) Right now all I can think of is my health and not all about being skinny. I get triggered alot but I have to be strong enough to not vomit thats really the first step to becoming healthy.

Just another day ~♥☺

Okay so I went to the playground today and had a great time with Staff (Mary) and went to Aldi to buy a few yummy yumms yums (food I like) Feeling in a good mood just watched The Little Mermaid to cheer myself up. Im not sure if we are having a chipper tomorrow night. Staff (John) is making me dinner but he's putting in cream in the mash potatoes so I might go for my pasta &mushroom for my dinner instead of chicken and mash/w vegetables.Im being kind to my body at the moment and not doing a lot of exercise Happy Thursday to everyone who is reading my blog!! Visit my page on TSR VISIT CREATE YOUR OWN ON SIMS 4 CREATE CC FOR THE SIMS 4 Or go to my Portfolio

HAPPYYYY

Okay so My breakfast is = 1apple(57cal) & 1 coffee(2cal)and Iv been very good keeping my food down and not vomiting it up. I like apples(57cal)(the green ones) and coffee other than that is a salad (I don't count calories for a salad)for dinner and a hot chocolate (40cal) before bed. I like listening to music and when the virus cod-19 is gone I want to treat myself to a massage and a facial with my nails done aswell. Having a good day so far, Just need to get use to the salad for dinner and lunch time choices.Iv stopped eating koka noodles my safe foods are: Coffee APples Salad Hot chocolate Asain street food - Pai thai noodles/spring vegetables

Bulimia help

Okay so I was on myproana and on the bulimic section and there are pictures of very fatty food to purge. Im an IP and a "normal" dinner would make me want to purge it up. I feel that Im limiting nearly every thing and is leading me to starvation (coffee,soup,malteasers,sandwichs ) I need help fast before I collapse and die from it. Every time I vomit I stop eating which means I vomited up my dinner so I have no dinner left in my stomach. Not sure what to do But when I loose a bit more weight im going to admit myself to hospital for some help

Halloween?

Okay so im gradually cutting down on foods of the food pyramid .. Breakfast will probably be the same till I get to 90lbs.Which is American Pancakes with/Blueberries Lunch & dinner will now change to a salad and low carbohydrates foods.Snacks will stay the same, (coffee black.) I was looking on a few ana websites and they said that cutting down is much better than stopping altogether. The BBQ I had today for dinner acutally made me not want the roast lamb chops Salad is a safe food with olives And maybe Ill allow myself to a microwavable potato I think Im down to a size 12-16 now going online shopping and getting nice clothes for the summer. I can not wait till Halloween because I can fit into a costume which will be some kind of animal with wings or a masquerade ball dress. https://www.myproana.com/index.php/blog/81451-coffeegirl17s-blog/

218lbs

7/5/2020---- Okay so I went to see the nurse today to get an injection for my illness. I had granola yogurt,koka noodles,2american pancakes w/jam+blueberries 1coke-a-cola so far today, Im going to have my usual dinner, which is olive s>/feta cheese/colesole/1baked potatoe+ baby leaf Iv only lost 2lbs but Im not going to binge. I think tomorrow is Take-a-way so if we are having take-a-way Ill be vomiting it up. Looking forward to Halloween .Ill probably be a size 6-8 by then.I want to dress up as a fairy with wings and long leg warmers. Feeling tired at the moment which is good coz its stopping me from eating something. 11/5/2020- Well today Im going to have a nice time out for a drive and probably get some lunch out so I'm looking forward to that I have to wait till 1pm till staff come in.I signed a sheet about the care of me sheet and I went online shopping for clothes size 16-18 Iv lost a lot of weight and hopefully they will fit me :)

Real Girl Thinspo w/ Paramore music :) 218lbs 7/5/20

Heighest weight = 238lbs Current weight = 218lbs Goal weight = 200lbs Ultimate goal weight = 96-112lbs

Thinspiration - Real Girls

Here is a video for motivation ENJOY !!!

YOU CAN GO TO MY FORUM Feel ing lie i need to start having a new dietr instead of choclate

15stone 3lbs

Okay so My diet is Apples & Coffee, Sandwich &Soup.Need to loose 50-100lbs to get to a size 6.If I need to binge I will probably drink some water Diltued or a cup of Coffee(2calories) feeling kinda hungry got stomach cramps at the moment just had some KOKA NOODLES and some DIET COKE Looking forward to Loosing some weight like Ill be a size 4 in just a few months I want to go shopping when the virus is gone and spend some cash to treat myself to a nice big hoodie for in doors. So I am on a diet,Im allowing myself to a sandwich every supper time before bed so I don't collapse or fall into a deep sleep and feel very tired the next morning.I weighed myself yesterday and I think the staff are changing my weight on the scales coz it says 16stone and I know I am defo not 16stone.

The dinner I had was 250caloire and Slimfast diet drink https://www.ebay.ie/itm/SONY-PLAYSTATION-2-PS2-GAME-DOGS-DOGS-LIFE-BOX-INSTRUCTIONS-COMPLETE-PAL/324059882492?hash=item4b737963fc:g:dhMAAOSww~heNMa4 https://www.ebay.ie/itm/Ladies-Womens-Winter-Snow-Boots-Fur-Warm-Comfy-Casual-Diamante-Shoes-Size-3-8/112694325163?hash=item1a3d1aefab:m:mF4gET2c1F81_rJMH0RsvQQ https://www.ebay.ie/itm/Bear-Ear-Panda-Winter-Warm-Hoodie-Coat-Women-Lady-Hooded-Jacket-Outerwear-Jumper/274039135804?hash=item3fce015e3c:m:mxEyWDCl0RXvZuH-6WkTkqw

15stone 13lbs

STart weight = 17stone 5lbs CUrrent weight= 15stone 13lbs

Need to loose another 50lbs at least. https://www.losertown.org/eats/cal.php Treat days = (Every Sunday & Hoildays including Easter eggs)

HAPPY Easter♥

Okay so Im on a strict diet of apples,coffee,soup,koka noodles & yogurt. I need to loose 100lbs at least to get me to 100lbs.So Its nearly Easter and I really do not want an egg,just coz it will be over 1,000calories per egg.

Feeling good going a a strict diet(like I mentioned before) Give me a month of soup & sandwich/popcorn/coffee/apples. And then I can start giving up on a few things just need my body into starvation mode to start wasting away the muscle. I know many people say that's a bad way to diet but feck it anyways.Its the only thing on my mind at the moment.Just had a black coffee waiting for dinner @ 6pm. I have to be good and Ill reward myself after this crisis is gone and the shops re-open again. The 1st thing im doing is getting my nails done :D EDIT( AILL ADD MORE IN A WHILE)

Breakfast = 1 apple 1coffee Lunch= Soup ,1coffee Dinner= Soup,1coffee Supper= grilled cheese white sandwich ,1 coffee FOr the next 2weeks. Slowly I will loose some weight.because Im @ 224lbs this will speed up my metabolism.

thinspo: coffee

SOme thinspo for drinking black coffee 2calories enjoy!

A size 4

OKay so I am on a strict diet of LOW CARBS.. For the next 2weeks Ill be eating a lot of fruit and soups.I need to loose about 50-90lbs to get me back into a size 4.My mom is really skinny and I really want to loose a few pounds-not for anyone but myself I have to hearing "pull up you pants" or "your top is too small" all the time!! I feel that with my mental illness there is no security and I have regular manic attacks so Iv decided to slim down to a size 4. Iv joined LOSE IT and well I have this diary I got off santa and Iv been writing down stuff that I have to remember.When the corna virus -19 is gone Ill be going to treat myself by getting gel nail art and a massage and a facial :P Within 2days(so far) My tummy is not flabby down,its now a reasonable round baby tummy.I think Iv lost weight but I threw out my weighing scales last year and I don't want staff thinking that im on a diet so I can't use the weighing scales.Since most of my weight is muscle Im just going to sweat out the fat by going swimming-like I said before when the virus is gone I'll be able to do a lot more.I like being in doors and I feel like some sort of failure when I leave the house LOL ya weird huh? it is a nice day out so I don't feel so bad.I can't wait to get into my size (10?) combats? Its my fat waist is the problem I can pull them up expect that they get stuck and wont go above my butt. So For the 1st week of my diet I won't count any calories but The portion sizes and what I do eat will be low in carbs. This means a lot of apples & soup. Ya so Breakfast is 2apples & a coffee lunch can be popcorn and diet coke,or soup. Dinner/supper time will be a big bowl of soup and some water and a lot of water to fill myself up and shrink my tummy. https://www.myproana.com/ https://www.myproana.com/index.php/user/549193-theyellowducky2017/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvvS_Kx7ChY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=32Rgow2J3fk

WHat to do now?

Okay so I live in as a IP for the past 5 1/2 yrs Im allowed to do what ever I like as long as its on "The Planner".I do "The Planner" Every Sunday and I stick to a points plan to help me with my mental illness.Iv been bulimic for over 10yrs on and off and Now I feel that my mom (who is tiny I think shes a size 2) wants the best for me but recently I feel hurt and alone and p*****D off that the staff get a lot of money trying to make me normal as possible.They keep saying that my pants are down and would I mind pulling them over my stomach(which I always said I wont but Ill pull them up on my hipbones)I live with 2other girls that are on medication and are my friends-some what like a friend. Im on a very thin line at the moment,should I go back to a size 4 and get my hair done and buy loads of nice clothes? or suffer continuously in a silent manic depression? Its not about what I look like anymore-If I was to go on a diet it would be more for my inner self than my appearance.I like The way I look like right now but I rather see my hipbones and wear a size 2-4 in jeans. Its St. Patricks day tomorrow and all I have is a green beaded necklace.ANd My army zip up. My friend got fat and now I feel so alone :( I want some freedom and I want to be with my mom but I have cabin fever and homesickkk :(

Spiders On Drugs

Injection & Mcdonals

Okay so Tonight Im getting a take-a-way instead of a proper dinner wooo!Feeling in a good moon ,yes I didn't go to Mcdonals today after my injection but staff told me I could go tomorrow instead so ya its nice feeling that I can eat and not feel guilty like I did before.About 2years ago my eating disorder was really bad and I felt like a fat pig eating and puking (vomiting) It took me about 2-3months to stop purging,Bulimia was like an addiction that Made me dehydrated .The staff knew that I was suffering and they either put tin foil over food,tell me to choose healthier meals,bring me out for lunch and other meathods they used was buying bottled water that has medication in it for dehydration(When you vomit you loose certain vitamins and water)and encourage me to talk about it.I still worry about my weight but not as much.This morning while I was in the shower There is a shampoo "sanex" and smells really nice must buy some more next week. Its 15:37 and Im sooo hungry for some takeaway https://youtu.be/sHzdsFiBbFc

Dear Diary

Okay so I went to McDonalds to day and had Large Fries/Cheese burger no tomatoe sauce/Large Coke-a-cola. Got some Fake Tan in Boots coz they didn't have it in pennys(the one I like is coco brown

Need to read more of my book "The Diamond of Dury Lane" its a library book and Im half way to completing it.Its a children horror because I was reading about James Patterson's book(for adults) and got afraid so I stopped reading his books and went to see something in my age. ST.Patricks day is the next holiday to celebrate and Ill have to go all out and buy something green I don't really like my nail art at the moment its ugly I can't lie but it is not my type of beauty That I like.

Feeling Wide awake after my shower this morning,I love the smell of my shampoo that Id bought yesterday I think.Ya I think it was yesterday when I bought it.Need to put some tan on tonight and read some of my book maybe tomorrow when I feel up to it. I hate it when im upset and can't "reach" the book and just sit down and read a few chapters its best if I just had my lunch and spend the next 3-4hours reading and than play my Nintendo Switch Lite.Okay I have to remember a few things: > When I get my nails done,Choose a light base colour >Put tan on every Saturday >Instead of eating out in Mulingar and get pai thai noodles-go to Mcdonals >Buy goodies in ALDI for the weekend >GO to the Cinema once a week >GO to bed early and have cookies & Tea for supper >Ham & cheese sandwich for lunch > Buy shoes and a Get T-shirt for swimming printed on 10EUROS > Look for games for Nintendo switch on Ebay >Find the number to my brothers mobile >Stay in on Saturday/Sunday expect for cigarettes

SATURDAY NO MONEY

Okay so I have enough money to last me till Wednesday and I really have to think of nxt week what Im going to do till than. I have to buy some fake tan and some taco Doritos's with sour dip. Maybe go to McDonalds? Ill be going to fairgreen next week and thats free,the library is free aswell so I might have enough on Wednesday Having burger N chips tonight for dinner.yum.Feeling really sick,last night my throat hurt really bad and I just drank Miwadi and went back to sleep.Back to the future is on at the moment.Im really thirsty right now might get some more Miwadi in a minute. CAn't find my camera phone charger so... :( ANyways just typing out a load of randomness.

Britney Spears - Gimme More - Audio

OKAY SO I DELETED

Okay so I deleted my last entry's coz I am on recovery from Bulimia and want to get better.ALtho I was loosing alot of weight I wasn't happy with my throat being so sore @ night and dizzy ness.. My main focus is all about getting better and having some fun along the way.I am psychopath but I don't mind sharing my thoughts with staff (I live in as a IP) So far so good.I love swimming aswell oh ya did I forget to mention that its pancake tuesday tomorrow and Ill be having loads of pancakes with honey and some fruit on top mmmmmmm.... yum.not yuk,yum. AT the moment Im reading "The Diamond of Dury Lane" and its really a good read when I feel bored or want to have some space within the house I just go to my room and spend around 30-60mins reading than go out for a cigarette and play on my nintendo switch.(That I got from Santa last year)Right now Im waiting for the dinner to be cooked and we are having-my favourite..Shepard's pie with Koka noodles(later for supper).Yesterday I bought Civilisation VI game for nintendo switch and its soo crap. I bought it in Argos and it costs under 50EUROS and is rly crap.Im waiting to buy the hospital game which isnt even out yet.Im doing this "Points system" where I do chores for "Points" I can use these by picking out a selection of offers like going to the cinema 50points ,coffee 5points,and other fun activities to help me not to become lazy or harm myself.Staff usually allow me to have "goodies" any day of the week and I can buy sweets and taytos and a drink with also buying my daily cigarette buy.I'm watching tommy Tiernan its really funny and hes from galway =) HAPPY ASH WEDNESDAY . Feeling really bored at the moment I really want to buy the sims for my laptop-only probable is my laptop is half broken! Ya i know..crap.I googled The sims for nintendo switch and one of the forums for sims said that they wanted EA to make a sims 4 on nintendo switch.Alot of it were people saying that the memory space wouldnt hold for a switch,and wouldnt have the known things like baby grows up to be a teeanger and into adult.I have Nintendo Dogs and its really annoying it says in one of the tasks is pet the dog 40times and you get a reward. Here are a few things I like: Isketch its an online piconary game guess/draw what the other person is drawing and get points-at each game the person with the most points wins Urbandead Another online game where you defeat the zombies,join a clan and get XP and spend it on performance during the game,you can only move 30times per 30mins.its free. Neopets Own a pet,feed it battle it in the neodome,meet other newbies,earn NP playing games PC An online forum for people with mental illness