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SOme thinspo for drinking black coffee 2calories enjoy!

A size 4

OKay so I am on a strict diet of LOW CARBS.. For the next 2weeks Ill be eating a lot of fruit and soups.I need to loose about 50-90lbs to get me back into a size 4.My mom is really skinny and I really want to loose a few pounds-not for anyone but myself I have to hearing "pull up you pants" or "your top is too small" all the time!! I feel that with my mental illness there is no security and I have regular manic attacks so Iv decided to slim down to a size 4. Iv joined LOSE IT and well I have this diary I got off santa and Iv been writing down stuff that I have to remember.When the corna virus -19 is gone Ill be going to treat myself by getting gel nail art and a massage and a facial :P Within 2days(so far) My tummy is not flabby down,its now a reasonable round baby tummy.I think Iv lost weight but I threw out my weighing scales last year and I don't want staff thinking that im on a diet so I can't use the weighing scales.Since most of my weight is muscle Im just going to sweat out the fat by going swimming-like I said before when the virus is gone I'll be able to do a lot more.I like being in doors and I feel like some sort of failure when I leave the house LOL ya weird huh? it is a nice day out so I don't feel so bad.I can't wait to get into my size (10?) combats? Its my fat waist is the problem I can pull them up expect that they get stuck and wont go above my butt. So For the 1st week of my diet I won't count any calories but The portion sizes and what I do eat will be low in carbs. This means a lot of apples & soup. Ya so Breakfast is 2apples & a coffee lunch can be popcorn and diet coke,or soup. Dinner/supper time will be a big bowl of soup and some water and a lot of water to fill myself up and shrink my tummy. https://www.myproana.com/ https://www.myproana.com/index.php/user/549193-theyellowducky2017/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvvS_Kx7ChY

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WHat to do now?

Okay so I live in as a IP for the past 5 1/2 yrs Im allowed to do what ever I like as long as its on "The Planner".I do "The Planner" Every Sunday and I stick to a points plan to help me with my mental illness.Iv been bulimic for over 10yrs on and off and Now I feel that my mom (who is tiny I think shes a size 2) wants the best for me but recently I feel hurt and alone and p*****D off that the staff get a lot of money trying to make me normal as possible.They keep saying that my pants are down and would I mind pulling them over my stomach(which I always said I wont but Ill pull them up on my hipbones)I live with 2other girls that are on medication and are my friends-some what like a friend. Im on a very thin line at the moment,should I go back to a size 4 and get my hair done and buy loads of nice clothes? or suffer continuously in a silent manic depression? Its not about what I look like anymore-If I was to go on a diet it would be more for my inner self than my appearance.I like The way I look like right now but I rather see my hipbones and wear a size 2-4 in jeans. Its St. Patricks day tomorrow and all I have is a green beaded necklace.ANd My army zip up. My friend got fat and now I feel so alone :( I want some freedom and I want to be with my mom but I have cabin fever and homesickkk :(

Spiders On Drugs

Injection & Mcdonals

Okay so Tonight Im getting a take-a-way instead of a proper dinner wooo!Feeling in a good moon ,yes I didn't go to Mcdonals today after my injection but staff told me I could go tomorrow instead so ya its nice feeling that I can eat and not feel guilty like I did before.About 2years ago my eating disorder was really bad and I felt like a fat pig eating and puking (vomiting) It took me about 2-3months to stop purging,Bulimia was like an addiction that Made me dehydrated .The staff knew that I was suffering and they either put tin foil over food,tell me to choose healthier meals,bring me out for lunch and other meathods they used was buying bottled water that has medication in it for dehydration(When you vomit you loose certain vitamins and water)and encourage me to talk about it.I still worry about my weight but not as much.This morning while I was in the shower There is a shampoo "sanex" and smells really nice must buy some more next week. Its 15:37 and Im sooo hungry for some takeaway https://youtu.be/sHzdsFiBbFc

Dear Diary

Okay so I went to McDonalds to day and had Large Fries/Cheese burger no tomatoe sauce/Large Coke-a-cola. Got some Fake Tan in Boots coz they didn't have it in pennys(the one I like is coco brown

Need to read more of my book "The Diamond of Dury Lane" its a library book and Im half way to completing it.Its a children horror because I was reading about James Patterson's book(for adults) and got afraid so I stopped reading his books and went to see something in my age. ST.Patricks day is the next holiday to celebrate and Ill have to go all out and buy something green I don't really like my nail art at the moment its ugly I can't lie but it is not my type of beauty That I like.

Feeling Wide awake after my shower this morning,I love the smell of my shampoo that Id bought yesterday I think.Ya I think it was yesterday when I bought it.Need to put some tan on tonight and read some of my book maybe tomorrow when I feel up to it. I hate it when im upset and can't "reach" the book and just sit down and read a few chapters its best if I just had my lunch and spend the next 3-4hours reading and than play my Nintendo Switch Lite.Okay I have to remember a few things: > When I get my nails done,Choose a light base colour >Put tan on every Saturday >Instead of eating out in Mulingar and get pai thai noodles-go to Mcdonals >Buy goodies in ALDI for the weekend >GO to the Cinema once a week >GO to bed early and have cookies & Tea for supper >Ham & cheese sandwich for lunch > Buy shoes and a Get T-shirt for swimming printed on 10EUROS > Look for games for Nintendo switch on Ebay >Find the number to my brothers mobile >Stay in on Saturday/Sunday expect for cigarettes